Roller coaster of life, love and happiness

Wow how time flys when you are living life. I of all people need to keep reminding myself to live, live, live. I am a perpetual worrier and planner, so I’m either worrying about something that hasn’t come or is yet to come, or is dreamt up in my head, or I’m planning things, planning vacations, planning dinner, planning plans…can anyone tell I’m a virgo? Anyways, I thought it was time to update my lil blog that really has no followers, so in all actuality, I’m talking to myself, but it is a release and a calming mechanism at that, so sit down party of one and enjoy the post. My last post was back on Mother’s day and a lot has transpired. My father has a permanent residence at the nursing home due to his Parkinsons and now that dementia is slowing setting in. My mother always says he is this way and he is another way, but when I am around him, he seems normal and talks just like he always did. I personally think’s he does it for some sort of attention, or a way to get back at my mother, but she really had no other choice other than to have him taken care of this way. She cannot do it all by herself, and their place is too small for any type of wheelchair movement at all, so I suppose this is the way it has to be. I do have some animosity about the situation, but I normally do not air my private life to everyone and I rarely talk about this situation even to my partner. It is my feelings that I keep inside and I block them out when it comes to dealing with daily life. If I bring emotions into the picture I become consumed and we all know how Virgos deal with things. Anyways, on our “house” note, we have really been busting our butts getting our kitchen remodeled. It is our “work in progress”. We have all the upper cabinets in place, we have two 3 base cabinets in the garage, so we now need a new sink, counter top and dishwasher, then floor comes after that. We got a new stove, and installed an over the stove microwave, so now we are now painting and it looks absolutely fabulous. We have chosen a sage/mossy green wall paint and a cabin red trim, which is above the cabinets and will be the trim. We also installed a new door frame on one of the doors. So we have 2 other door frames to redo. I could seriously work in the house all day and not be bored or feel the need to interact with anyone. (A.D.D. moment coming) I am just like that, and I think it partially comes with age. I mean I love the friends that we have, because at this time in our lives, the friends we have around us are genuine ones. Not the fake friends that you meet and then leave or disappear into oblivion. I know for a fact that there are about 4-5 of our close friends that we can count on at any given time, and you know what I am ok with that. (back to the regularly scheduled program) We have tackled the canning season with full steam ahead motion. We made tons of homemade spaghetti sauce, I made homemade pear vanilla jam that is so so good and full of rich flavor that mmm it just makes me all yummy inside. I also tried my first hand at making homemade hummus as well as my pita chips. I like to stock up for the winter, I love to do frugal things, and I love to know that if we want it can happen. I am a very self-serving person. I would prefer to do it myself than to wait for someone else to do something for me, hence why we are doing all these house projects. (A.D.D. moment again) Yes they are not completed to my standard of “time frame” but you know what, it keeps us busy, and in the end it will be all the better because we know we did everything ourselves, from painting to redoing the bathroom downstairs, to plumbing, to putting in the patio outside, to installing a new ceiling in the living room (removed the drop ceiling) to laying hard wood floor, to redoing the bathroom upstairs and installing floor and new sink in there. The list is endless and this blog is so scattered and endless that you are probably thinking I’m a hamster in a habitrail, but my blog reflects my head, which reflects my thoughts which is in a round about way, me and my life. So yea, that about sums up my spinning thoughts for the day.