Monday, Monday, Dreary Monday

Monday is always the first day of the work week and for some reason it’s a date of depression. I loathe coming to work on Mondays, let alone having it rainy and foggy. Ugh, oh well, not much I can do about it, but I just needed to vent a bit. This past weekend was very funfilled, we went to the Bass Pro Shop on Friday after work, and picking up the kids, that place I never use to like until H drug me along and I have to admit I do enjoy it. Especially the clothing section, oh and the dehydrating and spice/food saver section. I have all these ideas in my head to do some dehydrating but I can’t seem to find the time. But I guess what I will do is the start of the new year I plan on doing it. I’d love to make my own beef jerky, but just not use deer meat. So that was our plans for Friday, then we hit our favorite restaurant Chilis and had a great time. Saturday we all split up and did Christmas shopping, Nick and I went down to the outlets and the Hagerstown Mall, and Maddie and H did the Chambersburg stores. We eventually all ended up back at home, where I made shrimp scampi, which was delish. Sunday we headed to my cousin’s house in Ephrata for a family get together, with yummie food. Today I just got an email from our CEO stating that they are giving us off work on 12/24, which is great, because I’m off that whole week until the 28, which is Friday, so I’ll work one day then off again. This weekend we need to finish up Christmas shopping then I need need need to do baking, which probably will be on Sunday. Mmmm wonder what cookies I will bake this year??

Today I am just grateful to be alive….

Last night on the way home from work, I took the road I normally do 81 northbound…I was about a ¼ mile from the Maugens Avenue exit, driving in the right lane, minding my own business. I needed to get gas at that exit so that is why I was in the right lane. Traffic was heavy and there were tractor trailers to the front of me, and to the left of me. It just so happens before I knew what actually happened, I was being shoved in a spin, round and round and round I ended up in the left lane in the grassy median. I remember the car spun so fast but inside I spun very slowly, gripped the wheel so very tightly, and had my foot pushed so far down on my brake pedal to try to come to some stop. I eventually did stop and was so lucky that I did not hit the guardrail that was a little bit up from where I did end up, and for repeating this over and over in my head…for not being killed on impact. You see as that tractor trailer truck drove over the dotted line, his front end clipped or “pushed” my car like I was sliding on ice. When he pushed me it made my car turn left and around and around and around. I kept thinking that if a car was right behind the tractor trailer as he then went into the right lane, the only vehicle left spinning in the left lane would have been mine which I would have been hit directly on the drivers’s side door, and not actually live to tell about it today. I sat in the car for a while trying to grasp my thoughts, and calm my shaking hands…I got out of the vehicle to check if my tired had blown. Luckily all four tires were intact, I then looked up and saw the tractor trailer on the right side of the road, up about a couple hundred feet. I got back in my car, was able to drive it across to the other side where I could access what had just happened. This man was shaking outside the truck, asking me if I was ok if I was ok, I said I was other than just being shook up. He kept saying I didn’t see you, I didn’t see you, and I’m like how could you not see me, I’m in the right lane, in front of you…you crossed over the dotted line, well he didn’t have a clue what I was saying because his English was very broken and then I said, look, I need to get your insurance information, and he looked at me with big eyes and said, no no no, I can’t give you that, I just started this job, and I cannot provide you with that, and went over to look at the damage to my bumper, and said we can fix. I said no, we cannot, you are giving me your insurance information, I work for a defense law firm for an insurance company and I NEED your information. By this time the traffic was shut down, the fire engine and ems came, as well as the police. After all information was exchanged and I was calmed down a bit, the police officer said that it was what they call a “push and shove” so to speak, and it did feel like I was just sliding but didn’t’ know what caused it in my head because I wasn’t doing anything other than driving in my right lane minding my own business. The officer said I was very very lucky considering what COULD have happened. I then was able to drive home and get in my house and all I wanted to do was cry. I broke down because I kept seeing myself spin and then in my head I kept seeing a car coming to my left side…I could not get that image out of my head. I told H that it felt like it never happened, like it was a dream of some sort, that I imagined it…but I didn’t and that is the sad part. I called her at 6:48 to let her know I was in an accident, and apparently she texted me at the same time 6:48 “where you at baby”? Our paths crossed in that moment, both communicating in one way shape or form. I will never forget that day as long as I live.

I dont wanna wait, for our lives to be over...

Ever have one of those comfortable homey thoughts where you wish it was a snowy day, you were stuck inside, and you could snuggle on the couch and watch Dawson’s Creek on DVD, put a puzzle together and either drink hot cider, or have wine and cheese? Yep, I had one of those lil visuals today on my ride to work. I’m not really a “winter” person, but I do like snow, when I do not have to go outside, only because it kind of “blankets” the outside world, while we are tucked safely at home, and no one has to drive anywhere. So when I think of “snow” or “winter” I think of days like this. Where albeit my OCD does get the best of me, but if I have it planned in my head to NOT anything, then I can kind of stick to it. I think this will be a plan in the near future because for some reason I’m having a craving for a day like that. Since the weather outside is now getting a little colder, I can truly say I am very grateful for our home. I would prefer not to work, and just be a “housewife” again, but I believe those days are over for good, but I can dream can’t I?

Afterall Scarlett, Tomorrow is another day!

Ok, let’s hope today is better than the past two. I’m going to just go with the flow, and the “idiots” have been told about their incompetence so I guess I can only hope for the better right? Ok, now on to bigger and better ideas…this weekend, yep, its coming right around the corner, and my head again is a whirlwind with things I need to get done. I think H and I are going to split up the shopping tasks this Saturday since she still has to do shopping for me and well I need to get shopping done for the kids, so I’ll probably take one of them, and she’ll take the other and we’ll be off in a spree. Then I need to swing by the grocery store because we are going up to my cousins on Sunday, for our “Christmas” get together, yep, she finally agreed to do it, after missing a year or two I believe. Everything kinda went down the drain, after my grandmother and Aunt & Uncle moved to Colorado, and I hope that by rekindling this, we can bring the back the family get togethers. I mean my family isn’t the biggest but it is nice to get everyone together and of course “eat”. I’m making baked ziti and getting a rye bread bull and making dill dip to go with it, by cutting the interior of the bread out and putting the dip inside then using the remaining bread, and crackers and veggies for the dippin part. I’m going to prep everything the night before, then when we get their, I can cook the baked ziti since it will only take ½ in the oven. I know have to figure out what I’m making everyone in the office for Christmas, I can’t really say too much because I have 3 of the atty’s on my friend’s list and well, they will just blab blab blab, so it will be hush hush I think, if only in my head. Not to mention I need to start compiling stuff to bake, because I believe probably next Saturday I’ll do the baking thing which means more and more calories laying around in containers that I do not need, but I do love….  What happened to the days of me not working? Oh that’s right, reality set in!!!!

A post is a post is a post!

Well well, well, I finally remembered my password to get back into blogging, its been a year since my last post. Ugh.. oh well, no better time than the present to start again right? Well let’s see…Christmas is coming upon us so quickly, I’m still getting over Thanksgiving. I have so much stuff I need to get “present” wise its crazy. Not to mention budget the money to match what I need to get *sigh*. Oh well, its not like no one else is in the same boat as me….but we did make a lot of big purchases over Black Friday which one I am still recuperating over. We purchased an over the head microwave to add to our kitchen ensemble. Yep we have been slowly but surely buying new kitchen cabinets which albeit are now stored in the garage *insert frustrating growl here, as I will never have my garage back for my car*. Secondly we purchased another yep, get ready for the squeals, “DOG”! I know I know, I swore up and down I was not going to give in, but the fact that she is a lil dog is a plus, and that also she was born on the anniversary of us meeting was a plus as well. She is such a little fart, I can’t stand it, I feel like when I’m walking thru the house, I’m gonna step on a lil Scottish terrier body as she is underfoot, but it is just her way of saying, I love you mommy, and I’m going to follow you around forever!.. Work is still work, I get so depressed coming to work, and I think most of the depression lies with the drive. If I didn’t have such a long drive I don’t think it would be a problem, but it is, and I can’t seem to get over this hump. Heather got a promotion about 2 months ago, and she loves her new found glory, not to mention the pay is great but she works a lot of overtime which helps her pay accumulate. This is a good thing, we are still getting adjusted because she use to get paid weekly on Thursday, then the company switched it to weekly on Friday, then was switched to every other week, and now with her increase its every other week, but a larger amount, but it’s something I’m never sure what it will be. I have an idea in my head which I need it that way to keep me organized, and anything over that “idea” is a plus which I am rolling into the savings account, not to mention I’m repaying back the dog purchase, so I don’t feel so scatter brained. I’m going to be more on point at blogging, as it seems to open up my head a bit, even if it is just for a day!